A Bit More Into This Cause You Lazy Dumbbuttts Just Looked At The Phrase "Swearing Like a Sailor" And Missed The Entire Point

Well, it seems I need to go further in my issue, because it's obvious who made me quit.
But lets take a time travel?
'Who did this..'
I added Nick to Skype.
Nick made CLC quit.
Nick did some other crap.. xD
Nick temporarily left. ._.
4Th generation Skypies joined cause they thought what I tweeted out from Skype was funny.
Crap happened and it involved me doing dirty work cause I was screwed anyway.
Jazz 'n' Jordan leave.

Guess who that alll links back to?
Me.
Yup. You all can stop telling the people I most look up to how horrible, mean, selfish and b~~~~y.
I get it.
You guys hate me.
You can stop thinking 'Oh this is just her sob story' and crap. Cause honestly it is, but it's what I DM Mary every night. Sometimes it becomes bad enough I start drawing my own blood, or holding a knife to that hollow thing called my heart.
And when I make the '._.' face, it means I wanna take my frowned upon emo self and jst shrink to the size of a ant. It would hurt less if someone stepped on me.
And then I'd get the trampling I derseve.
BTW.
I'm not doing this for sympathy or crap. I'm doing it cause, well, if my reputation's already shot, why not?